THESE ARE MY CONFESSIONS BUT USHER IS PRETTIER TO LOOK AT

I may end up with white hair

But not past 30

I do not think about kids

Or money

I think I will be fine

I think ill have pleny

I hope I am wrong about my predications

But these are the things I believe for protection

10 more years isn’t a long time,

I am only 20

And this is 2015

I had to make a decision

To relinquish my life vision

To not make incisions

Only decision

That will help me breath

To not make incisions only decisions

To let the ones in my heart heal

I need to stiches to heal

Heed as I stitch my life together

Bear witness to a momentary phoenix

In a tired state of smolder

After the torching of the fire

Bear witness to a fresh page

Bear witness as I testify my oath

I swear to never forget I am mortal

To never test that mortality myself

I swear to endure the forces of this life

And like a glass blower to make art out of grit

To make sense out of senseless shit

So that we harness the fire now

And only in this life and not the next

I swear I will learn how to breathe

To let oxygen fuel fire to be a meteor 

Burn like Audre

Burn the poison from my body and sweat words

So that words pour out of my pores

So that my hardness is refined and melted

For gold

Capping teeth 

Tying knots

Filling cracks in the hearts wells

I pray these words linger just long enough to help you find

The courage I never had

And for the universe

To nod 

And say

You are protected 

Let my words pour

Let them pour like light

I want to be light

I want to be light

I want to be light