selfies

I have no time for your shallow commentary on selfie culture

Maybe some people take selfies out of narcissism,

but it's not your body so back the fuck up.

Maybe you were lucky enough to have a mother who called you

beautiful everyday

Maybe you were lucky enough to have enough money to buy you 

nice clothes

Maybe you were lucky enough to look like what they wanted.

But everyday I wake up and look at my 200 pound brown body and then

I imagine something else.

Everyday I wonder why people tell me to lose weight?

to be smaller, lighter, softer, invisible?

"why do all brown people look the same?"

"why is your hair so dark?"

"you have a small forehead"

"you look so different without makeup" 

"did you lose weight? you should keep this look"

I recount these events in my head often.

and then I ask myself:

"who taught you to hate what God made you?"

The truth is I don't know.

What I do know is that every time I take a selfie

I feel real fucking pretty.

Anon